lundi 3 janvier 2011

2011: the future.

Happy New Year!
Bonne Année!

A shout out to all the friends who read this blog, and to those who have stumbled upon it. I do enjoy sharing thoughts on here, and am touched that people take the time to read said thoughts.

I suppose now is the time to think about New Year's resolutions, or about the year to come and what it might bring.I've never been good at projecting myself in the future. To me, the "future" is a flimsy concept which is not tangible or reliable. It's infinite and uncertain. To us humans, there's no way of knowing when one's future will end. But we know it will, at some point, since death is at the end of our future road. So yeah, the future, to me, is problematic. However, practically, it can be good to think forward in order to move on and make plans that will help us live fuller lives. The plans may change, they may morph into something different, but they first have to be formulated in some way, or else nothing can come out of them. I need to remember that making plans can be a good thing, if I'm willing to let the plans change with time, according to what the future holds. 

I'm starting to look for jobs since I will not be working at Touchstone theatre anymore after July 2011. It's a daunting prospect to search for a position (of any kind, at this point) after having been in a cocoon for two years. I know I have learned  and am learning a lot by being an apprentice, but I still feel very young and inexperienced. Although I have a master's degree, I don't know how to promote it in my applications. I don't know where to look, or what to do exactly, or even where to live. I have settled on staying in the States for a little longer, but that's pretty much it. Philadelphia and DC are at the top of my list for job searches. All I know is that I need to earn some money, and all I hope is that I will work in a field that's interesting to me.

Despite all this uncertainty, I don't feel panicked yet [yet, being the operative word]. And, I have figured something out which should help me : wether it's within or outside of my job, I need to keep on creating. I need to write more, think creatively, dream up projects, more, more, more.I have no idea what's in store for me, or for anyone, in this new year. There's no way of predicting anything. But, if we can work our way to doing what we love, then, there's hope and there will be satisfaction.

1 commentaire:

Karen a dit…

Hey cousin, I know exactly what you mean. I do not have a masters yet, but am applying for band director positions, imagine how I feel! I still get confused with being a "high schooler". But the big guy is in control of everything. That's what keeps me from having a panic attack. Just take it a step at a time and see what happens. And yes, keep the creative juices going. I really enjoy reading your blog and since I'm not in school, at the moment, I have more time to read it. Greetings from El Paso. We love you.